Couvre’s blog

This week was satisfying.

She is intelligent and I WILL trust her judgments; thus, I will reserve my final judgment on him.
Sometimes even I am wrong :P

Atheists allow me to feel whole, though i am generally less talkative around them because my greatest ability is debate and well... hard to debate those that agree with you on every topic.

I am really worried about Val. The knowledge i gave Tyler is crushing their friendship. He finally understands why it is so difficult for knowledgeable atheists to be close friends with christians. Inevitably.... the conversation comes up and you crush their logic. The christian always falls back on faith and you just lose so much respect :-\
His other best friend David also started talking about god and used the watchmaker argument....
I mean... Tyler hangs out with me and reads all the literature i give him. Why would David even try against people like us?

Leaving for Indianapolis Thursday night.
Excited!
Hungry for the win.
This one will be mine.

Tired of being tired.
The lack of sleep is severely impairing my memory.
I plan on accomplishing my two tasks tomorrow morning and then just sleeping until Thursday.

I was given two more books to read tonight.
Will i accomplish what the others couldn't?

Our talk today pleased me. I am proud to think of you as my friend.

Love
       Andrew

It was only one hour ago
It was all so different then
Nothing yet has really sunk in
Looks like it always did
This flesh and bone
It's just the way that we are tied in

I grieve for you
And you leave me
So hard to move on
Still loving what's gone

The above has nothing to do with the following.

I finally slept last night :)
Since only Talya knows about this journal I can write about the only dream I have. The location and words can of course change, but the emphasis of the dream never does. The dream involves either Jessica or me calling the other and saying this is stupid... We should be best friends like we always were. Then the dream branches out to us doing different things as friends again. I have been having this dream for years now ~_~. I guess it just seems strange to me that the only desire my mind has is to renew that one friendship. Over the years I have lost many different friends for various reasons, but none has struck me as deep as Jessica. How sad is it that if I could make one wish, ANY WISH, it would be that I never failed her?

I don't know what's going on with me... I haven't been able to get more than an hour or two each night :\
My mind just keeps thinking about everything that has happened and every possible way that I could have done something differently. I think the main issue is that my brain was allowed to wake up from its slumber and actually have discussions with people that I don't find boring. Talking about religion and philosophy is just like... the biggest turn on EVER.
Terri seemed oddly interested in what traits I find attractive in women... Yeah... The first and most important one is girls WITHOUT boyfriends! But seriously, the real thing that makes me attracted to girls is the ability to actually challenge my thoughts and ideas. I think most debaters are like that. We actually enjoy intelligent conversation *GASP*
oh... and glasses! :P yeah. YEAH!

We all had a great night! We went to dinner, Starbucks, and then back home to the patio to discuss thoughts. I feel kind of bad for Val though.... It must feel awful to be a Christian among 3 Atheist debaters ~_~ (2 new age, 1 that will soon be converted :P). This is the first time that I have actually been able to maintain a friendship with a Christian! The secret is Tyler warned her never to discuss religion around me :P. That is always the trigger :\. I mean you all know me, I am not rude, violent, or angry. I speak calmly and rationally when I discuss religion, but I mean... I am a national caliber college debater. It isn't really fair. I probably expect too much from people.

Life is going well! Tyler and I are going to live together next semester O.o. We are both so strong when it comes to analyzing arguments; I really feel bad for our classmates :P

p.s. I was at Starbucks the other day and convinced another Atheist to come out! I hope that you are all doing your part!

My friend assures me, "It's all or nothing."
I am not worried
I am not overly concerned
My friend implores me, "For one time only,
Make an exception."
I am not worried
Wrap her up in a package of lies
Send her off to a coconut island
I am not worried
I am not overly concerned with the status of my emotions
"Oh," she says, "you're changing."
But we're always changing

I can understand why you are doing this so i won't get angry. I have long since learned how silly boys can be.
Should you go back to her? no
I have never hid how i feel about her. There is no one quite as destructive as her.
I hope that you still take care of Val though. She needs people like us.

Hanging with Terri for once. Who ever thought that it would happen eh? Thankfully I have grown out of my self-doubting stage and now I constantly seek what I desire :)

Is there anything more frightening than the idea of nothingness?

http://www.nwfdailynews.com/article/14387/1

I wish they would have suspended me for wearing my "support gay marriage" t-shirts back in high school. School administrators never seem to prey on those that are strong enough to defend their positions :(

http://www.nwfdailynews.com/article/14401

Judge rules that the school must inform students that they do in fact have the right to display gay pride messages! Judge goes even further and condemns administrators for missing the opportunity to support diversity and tolerance.

"To be clear-headed rather than confused; lucid rather than obscure; rational rather than otherwise; and to be neither more, nor less, sure of things than is justifiable by argument or evidence. That is worth trying for."
-Sir Geoffrey Warmock

I will write the post later, just wanted to set the tone for it before I head to Barnes and Noble to buy a few books before tonight~

Okay! Back from the gym! I have been feeling so tired lately :\. I am pretty sure it is because I have been reading and analyzing people and arguments wayyyy too much ~_~. I have really become passionate about the Out Campaign and have been trying to spread the message as much as I can. I think there are two more meetings which I am attending this month as well. All I have to say is that if there really is a devil... YOU FRICKIN OWE ME BIG! Because I have turned soooo many people into atheists already ;P. I guess eternally enjoying the company of intelligent people will be enough for me :P

Can you imagine spending eternity with a bunch of christians in heaven? I am pretty sure that would actually be hell for me :P